My artwork in Tam’s 2nd book plus giveaway! :)


Hello everyone!

Tamara Laporte have written her 2nd book “Ever After: Create fairy-tale inspired mixed-media art projects to develop your personal artistic style” and I am one of guest artists there! Ever After book is a rich collection of step by step mixed-media art lessons, inspired by fairy takes, folk tales and classic fiction.

It addresses the most frequently asked question Tamara receives from her students: how do I develop my own creative style?

Each chapter offers creative exercises that invites readers to explore stories, their symbolism and a specific aspect of style development as they work toward and ultimately achieve their artistic goals.

Ever After teaches you to tell your own stories though artmaking so that your wish - to become the artist you always wanted to be - is sure to come true!

Guest teachers:

Kara Bullock

Lucy Chen

Danita Art

Andrea Gomoll

Annie Hamman

Marielle Stolp

Effy Wild

Micki Wilde

Fairy tales stories include:

Alice in Wonderland


Beauty and the Beast



Peter Pan

Skeeping Beauty

The little mermaid

And i have painted from the story of Rapunzel! 😍

I just received this book from Tam and so impressed by amount of projects there and how diverse in styles they are. Each artist have done a true justice to the chosen story, and step by step instructions are clear and easy to follow.

If you want a copy you can order it off Tam’s site directly:

Now then onto the giveaway! I can give away 1 copy of Tam’s book to 1 lucky winner! 

How to enter the giveaway:

Go to my Facebook page, comment on the post about this book that i made there and share that post. I will pick a random winner from that comment thread on Monday, 2nd September, and announce it right there in the comments of the post. 

Good luck with the giveaway! 



Coming out of the closet...

“Spirit of the tree” 2019

“Spirit of the tree” 2019

Did you know I could see into angelic realm? I can also see into the spirit realm of plants and animals and spirit realm of ancestors. I can see auras of people on various levels (energetic field, colors, illnesses), and I can read Akashic Records (soul’s purpose and its journey).

You can call it clairvoyant, or psychic, but I guess I prefer the term Seer. I never entertained the idea to make it my vocation or practice on people in any way. I never had a call to be a fortuneteller or healer of any sort. I could just see what is, on the unseen level, and it made me feel uncomfortable.

I had these abilities from birth, I did not need to develop them, unlock them, or go through any rituals or prayers to enter any of these realms. I just walked in and connected. It probably came to me and my sister, from the maternal line of my grandmother Anna, who had these abilities too.

I lived with it quietly, occasionally allowing it in, but mostly ignoring and trying my best to look normal. I had this tremendous fear of what will others say or think of me if they knew what I can see. Sometimes I thought of myself as crazy. But nobody seem to notice anything off about me, so I passed on as “not crazy” so far, rather a little antisocial.

I went to Ayahuasca and San Pedro plant medicine ceremony on 5th of April. These were my first encounters with plant medicines or psychedelics of any type. My intention of going there was healing, as I was going through some rough time controlling emotions, that were detoxing out of my body. So I was looking for some purging of the past, healing of the mind and peace of the heart. I didn’t think this ceremony would intensify my abilities and bring them onto the surface. (Duh.) Not only the seeing intensified, all of the beings in these realms started talking to me as well. (Here is the time for you, reader, to abandon this blog post and run for the heels.) I came out of there, facing reality of who I am more harshly than ever, and decided to come out of the closet for the peace of my mind.

Just to confirm what I already knew, I went to the local Seer an asked her to look into my Akashic Records. This is first time ever I went to any type of psychic person, I always thought of them as delusional people and didn’t want to get in touch with any of that. I told her nothing of myself, except that I am an artist, looking for some existential answers. She called me a “wounded healer” and suggested I start living up to my soul’s calling. “But I already do” – I told her. “I paint and teach spiritual type of art and all of it has healing effect on people. I show spiritual realms through my paintings.” “But you are silent, you never vocalize who you are. You started painting, so that you don’t have to speak. You can be so much more if you just embrace it.” – she said.

I came home feeling very irritated and decided that her reading was off. I went to the Akashic realm to look for answers, but more details of the same thing kept pouring in. And the more I looked, the more fear I was facing at the magnitude of what was available to see and experience. I asked my sister for permission, then looked into her Akashic records and told her what I saw. She started crying uncontrollably, telling me how she did not live up to her soul’s calling. I looked at her and saw a mirror of myself, mirror of so many of us. Fearful of who we are, of how amazing we are, of how magical we are. How many of us are afraid to unfold, to acknowledge, to experience? How many of you can honestly say you are not a powerful being of light in your essence, deep down on your soul level? We all know we are, question is can we embrace it?

So here you go, beautiful artists. Love and light to you all and to myself. And no judgement on any level.



What’s new? Upcoming online art workshop “Re-Connect to Nature” on 1st of July. I offer it on “pay what you can” basis. Workshop is inspired by my recent connection to plant medicines. Exploration of portraiture art through painting, drawing, sculpting and journaling. If you see this note much later than release date, you can still sign up on self-study basis. CLICK HERE to register.


Fearless destruction and re-creation of art

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Every now and then me and Tallulah Jade Rainbow are indulging in fearless creations like this one. We started it when Tallulah was 2 and we are still doing it when she is 7. Art for the sake of art, for the sake of fun and exploration. Without attachment to outcome. Today we reworked my last year artwork, and I think the result is a good example between stiff and loose art. One is controlled - another one - playful. She turned out to have a bit troubled and emotional expression, but that’s pretty much how art goes. We don’t really give birth to them, they are born through us, just like the life itself is living through us. All we have to do is stand by and observe.

I hope you enjoy this fun, fast forwarded video of the concept “art is never finished - only abandoned.” My favorite part is a cactus in the sky. ;-)

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What’s new:

Releasing new online art workshop on 1st of July 2019. Registration page:

Free video and upcoming new workshop


Hi everyone,

I have created this instructional video couple of months ago for one of the collaborative workshops I was part of. After some time the rights of the video comes back to me and I can sell it on my website. I decided to gift it to my subscribers to say thank you for staying with me all these years and for your continuous support.

You can view it here:

As for the upcoming new workshop that I was mentioning few times on the social media already, it was inspired by my recent healing journey with plant medicines and increasing connection to nature and all living things. It’s called “Re-Connect to Nature”. And although nature implies possibly painting plants, pine cones, cute owls and bunnies, as a portraiture artist, I have adapted this theme to painting, drawing and sculpting faces, inspired by nature elements. There will be art journaling, poetry, writing, air-drying clay, re-purposed book journal making, painting, drawing and collage. A true mixed media exploration, full of inspiration and love. What is more, I am making it very affordable and accessible to all. I am working on an information page right now, so more info is coming soon.

Although I was planning to release it in May, I was delayed by 2 weeks long glandular fever that literally tied me to a bed, so mid June will probably be more realistic date. I will send newsletter with exact dates within this coming week or so. If you don’t get one, please come back to this website in a week, the info should be under the Workshops tab.

Hope you enjoy painting with this video and hope to see you in my new class soon. :)


Preparing to paint on stones.


Painting on found bark of a tree.

Emotional liberation through Brian D Ridgway system & 2nd grape fast

What I Thought I Knew - 14”X18” mixed media, by Annie Hamman, March 2019

What I Thought I Knew - 14”X18” mixed media, by Annie Hamman, March 2019

Before I get to Brian D Ridgway system, I have to mention that I have completed my second 40 day grape and lemon fast on 12th of March (by Dr Morse system). I basically blended grapes and lemon juice and drank 750 ml at 8 am, 12 noon and 4 pm, and the rest 16 hours I dry fasted (no food no water). I pretty much followed my previous formula, (you can read about it in my previous blog post in August 2019 grape fast). I had reasonable filtration this time around, but hardly any physical detox symptoms. I would say this fast was rather physically asymptomatic, although I lost 5 kg of weight. I must also mention that I haven’t had symptoms of fibromyalgia for several months now. I don’t know if I have it any more, I feel perfectly healthy. Vegan food, mostly raw, plus working on emotions have everything to do with it. Last remnants of it disappeared when I started working on emotions. Those of you who have fibro and have already tried at least 1 year of raw food detox with little results, move onto resolving emotional issues, you might need that more than cleaning your physical body. Few times through this 2nd fast I even was wondering if my physical body already pretty clean and didn’t particularly needed this fast.

However my emotional body needed it. This time around I went through HECTIC emotional detox. I have never in my life experienced anything like it. Grief, sadness, anger, frustration, fear, resentment, and similar crap have crushed down on me like a ton of bricks. I never knew I had so much negativity contained in me. The process actually already started in September, right after completing my 1st grape fast, and after being on raw food, mainly fruit, for 4 months, but at that time I was totally unprepared for the emotional break down and did not take it well. I went to NLP practitioner for 3 months to resolve it, but it made little difference. I tried to follow German New Medicine, but could not connect with the system (It works for other people though). I even regretted to ever getting on raw vegan and fruit, because it unleashed so much stuff in my emotional body – it was not even funny! It nearly destroyed me. But hey, what doesn’t kill you – makes you stronger, right?

Second grape fast I started on 1st of February, this time I knew emotions are coming, and that it was going to get ugly. That didn’t mean I knew what to do with all of these emotions. The feeling was: I am going to let the emotions come, and hopefully I will figure out what to do with them and somehow survive. Optimistic hopefulness at its highest. I have been on a self-help journey long ago, from ages 16 to 26. I tried, studied and even practiced everything I could think of or find. After 10 years of gaining tons of theory and getting practically nowhere, I abandoned my search and lived with all my hibernating unresolved issues for another 15 years.

On 2nd February I visited my friend who is recovering cancer by DR Morse system and GNM, and complained to her about what I am going through, with regard to this grape fast and all the emotions. She looked at me intently and said: “You need to break your self-help addiction. I will send you Brian D Ridgway book.” I thought: “What? I am addicted to what?” She called me an addict! I was offended! She did send me the book (which is available for free online), but I only opened it a week later, I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to open it sooner. And wow, the bomb awaited me there. I was so ready to receive it, I gobbled up what was in it, like a drowning person with the last sliver of hope. This is where I started crying, and I cried and I cried and I cried, and things of my past and present began unraveling and resolving themselves. There were few links to videos in the book, I clicked and watched them. They made a huge impact on me too. I “participated” in every video, applying the techniques, and things began immediately shifting and changing in my life. I also went to FB and dag up every available free video of Brian’s and watched all of them too. They were mind blowing revelational and transformational. Not in a theoretical bla bla bla wow kind of a way, in a practical application kind of way. Where I did what was suggested, meticulously and practically, and it actually brought results.

I also discovered that Brian just started 12 week online workshop “Level 5 Liberation” that is still running until 12 April, I sent him private message and he allowed me in. He also made an offer to people, for the first time, to get access on “pay what you can basis”, which is quite remarkable. It allowed many people with financial strains, to get access to his teachings, and to a path of emotional liberation. Brian is very accessible and attentive to everyone, he loves people and loves to help. There are 70 people in a group, 30 of them interact on weekly live videos and what a powerful interaction this is.

During these few weeks of online group workshop with Brian, in conjunction of raw food detox that I was going through, I have grown emotionally by leaps and bounds, resolved things of my distant childhood and past years, that I abandoned hope to resolve, and major positive changes have happened in my life. I restored family relationships, restored broken friendships – that were abandoned and seemed beyond repair, restored business relationships, financial situation changed for the better, I overcame fears of putting myself out there and fears of change, social awkwardness and anxiety disappeared. I became very clear and aware on what I wanted in life and how to achieve it - it looked so simple, it was ridiculous I haven’t noticed any of it before. I was also constantly receiving gifts and attention from people in one continuous flow, and transformed from a party loner to a people’s magnet. I used to have severe fear of authorities and bureaucracy (from the times of my childhood in socialistic Soviet Union), and was unable to go to embassy to apply for passport so I could travel. I had no travel document for 7 years and felt trapped! Few days after starting on Brian’s system I applied for my passport. I called embassy and they were very friendly and helpful, it turned out to be very easy. I hanged up and started crying hysterically. I think it’s actually quite funny how f…ed up we actually are without fully realizing it. I have found confidence, courage, stability and peace of mind that I haven’t felt in years, or maybe never. These changes have occurred in a period of just 1 month! If you are interested in trying Brian D Ridgway system, below are all the links. Do not enter if you are not intending to practically work with emotions, you have to give it your best and be prepared to break down and rebuild yourself again. Brian will not save you, he will guide you, but you have to do the work yourself. Be open minded to encounter one of the brightest, intuitive, down to earth and unconventional teachers of our time. He will move you out of your comfort zone, shake you out of your stupor, even offend you (if you need it), make you laugh and cry a lot, and open doors to possibilities you never knew were always available to you.

Free Book “Break your self-help addiction.”: There are links to videos within this book, please watch them and “participate” while watching. This is how I felt the system is really working.


Personal Facebook page (he accepts friend requests):

Business Facebook page (both pages - private and business have lots of free videos):

If you wish to participate in Brian’s online workshop “Level 5 Liberation”, send him a private FB message, he should give you access and you would be able to pay what you can. (Hope that haven’t changed yet.)

Please note: I am not having any financial gain by recommending any of it, just sharing my journey. If you for some reason against any of his teachings, please keep your opinion to yourself, I am not here to open a debate, this is my subjective experience. Thank you. :)

Hope this helps some of you. Thank you for reading, my friends.